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I am a selfish bitch

What am I going to do about Mary?
I like Mary. I greatly enjoy fucking Mary. Mary can fuck me well. But is that all there is?

She's funny, friendly, pretty, intelligent, close to my height (it helps with certain things), self contained, drives (well I might add), isn't an alcoholic, yeah she's cool.
But I don't get butterflies.
Not that I'm searching for excitement. There is a certain flush of blood that I search for and just don't receive from her.

Not to mention the let down I must have been this weekend by being flippant about her birthday celebration. I was sick but I still hadn't planned on going. Why because I don't want her to get to used to me. The role I would be put in is not one I want to wear.

I am a selfish bitch.

11:34 a.m. - 2005-10-25

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