elgac's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- a new path Let's start today with a flash back of what my life was a couple of months ago.... Her:Why are you putting make-up on? Me:Because I want to look nice, and it calms me down. Her:Who are you dressing up for, is it for her or him? Me:It's just because, like I fucking already said. Her:I was just asking you a question, you don't need to yell at me. Me:I was just getting ready for work. Leave me alone I need just do a little of what I want to do. Her:I would like to do what I want to do. But no I do what is right for us. Me:Be free do what you want, I love you and would like for you to be happy. Her:Oh really thats why (Blank Blank Blank) happend and so and so... Me:That has nothing to do with this, I'm leaving. I don't want to be late for work again. Her:You always just leave....blah blah... Me:I just want to go to work, leave me be, fuck can't I even walk down the street with out you following me pleading. Her:You make me like this, Please tell me is over? Me:I can't answer that right now I have to go to work so that I can pay our bills. Then she would normally stop, wait until I got to work and then the phone calls would start.
I think this new path that I'm diverging on is good. There are pros and cons but as far as I can see they seem to be one for one. I would like to think that a bit of the learning I have incapsulated from my hearts wanderings will shield me from early loss. 11:43 a.m. - 2005-03-17 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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